What's Your Number?

I think mine is 20ish. I say this because I don't actively keep track of my encounters, for example I couldn't tell you the names of people 12 months ago. However I do like to know where my number is, roundabout, so this masterpiece of a graph shows the shags I remember.

At the end of the day, the actual number doesn't matter; if I'd had said 1 or if I'd said 100, I'd like to think my sex stories would still be interesting and occasionally funny, and with my partners (that is a shit word to describe someone you've shagged, but IDK what else to use), the number shouldn't also matter. We're all aware men and women receive different reactions when they say 1 or 100, so as a girl, what are all your perceptions of my number? You are very welcome to have whatever opinion you want. Sex-positive or slag? People are allowed their opinions, but I'm going to share how I view this topic.

The reason why I don't precisely keep count of who I slept with is that I have no reason to. As long as I have a way to contact the boy if things go tits up, who's been in me is nonconsequential. To dispel the myth, my vagina is as tight/loose as it's always been because that's the way vaginas work. I wouldn't call myself particularly cautious when it comes to choosing my bed-buddy, but I'm also very keen on condoms, so medically I'm fine; usually. I have heard of friends keeping lists of names and dates, which I don't really understand why they'd do that. Who wants to remember shit sex? Anyway, the amount of dicks I've had inside me does not concern me.

However as I've said, I do like to know-ish where my number is. So, clearly I don't want this number to be too high. I don't think I even know what 'too high' is in my opinion, 50? 100? I'm going to blame social standards for slut-shaming *mainly women* having lots of sex. I also wouldn't be lying if I said I do get a slight perverse kick if my number is higher than the boy's, or if I've last shagged more recently than him, so maybe that says a lot about my character as well. Now I'm confused about what I actually believe, aw man, I wanted to be a feminist sex-positive icon.

*side note* Writing this blog, I'm finding it difficult to balance presenting myself as "look at me, I sleep around" and just being informative. So I'd just like to say I'm not trying to boast about my sex life, though it may come across that way. I'm genuinely just presenting showing my highs and lows. Ngl, this got way deeper than I expected but what can I say, I'm multifaceted :*.

In conclusion, I am conflicted in my moral philosophy, still horny, and continually hard up.